My Bipolar Journal – Episode 43
February 19, 2007
Wow, I guess I could have been a little harder on myself. Egad. If anyone is concerned, everything's fine now. I think I've really found something for real. I know I have actually. I found someone that gets it and doesn't ridicule me for it. I found someone that freaks out as much as I do and understands that I can do the same thing and it doesn't mean the end of the world. I'm still having trust issues. I'm still scared as hell. I picture things that I never even wanted to picture again and it's even scarier that those thoughts make me happy. I hope I've gotten myself through this patch of doubt and can just move forward and be happy and make this person happy. It's the most important thing I've ever experienced. I can't fuck this one up.
"I could feel something different for the first time
Heaven made sense and all the words rhymed.
No chance of stopping now. I'm taking it all.
And now I'm caught in the air, its a good glide.
Pass it up, wouldn't dare what a wild ride.
I remember being ready and waiting to fall
just like I did tonight." ~Ready and Waiting to Fall by Mae
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