My Bipolar Journal - Episode 179

My Bipolar Journal – Episode 179

February 25, 2008

So, where is this world where it matters if people talk about you behind your back? I don’t understand the significance of what anyone thinks of me or who they say it to. Second of all, everyone has a problem with everyone at some point in their life and the only way to get it off your chest is to talk about it to your other friends. And my favorite is the scenario of confrontation. “I heard you were talking about me behind my back.” Well, where did you hear that from? Obviously you were talking about me behind my back or else you never would have known that I was talking about you.

The real key is being able to be real in all circumstances. If I say, “I think [insert name here] is being an ass”, even though I may not choose to say it to that person, if confronted I would say, “Yes, I think you’re being an ass.” Where is this place that we shouldn’t be able to say that?

Now sometimes I might say something to someone that I wouldn’t necessarily volunteer to the actual person because I either need advice about the situation or I know that I’m being stupid and need to blow off steam and the situation would pass.

I can’t possibly imagine a world though where I would even dream of giving a crap that you were saying anything about me because everyone is entitled to an opinion and a lot of times, I would deserve or have been or done whatever it is that you’re saying.

I can’t imagine a world where I would have any information or thoughts or ideas that anyone would be able to blackmail me with. If you think there is a world that exists such as that, then I think you’re the one with something to hide.

Just be yourself all the time. Say what you want to say, when you want to say it… every… single… time.