My Bipolar Journal - Episode 173

My Bipolar Journal – Episode 173

February 3, 2008

Macaroni, cheese and cock. Who could ask for anything more?

I have had the funniest and the most fun past 48 hours. So many great people in such a small amount of time should not be allowed by law. So many people embrace my forwardness, some fear it, some are unsure. Either way, I love that people are different.

I love that people I hadn’t seen, literally in years came out tonight. I’m glad that people I’ve nearly just met rocked my ass and that they exist and that they’re new and perfect in their own way.

I love that there is unfinished business that I was never sure would be attended to will be attended to.

I love that I’m friends with one of my best friends again, even if I’m never sure how long it will last. It’s good to know people are amazing and imperfect.

I adore that I have 500 friends on my own personal page and that I know each and every one of you or have a personal interest in your music… and that I’m not lying.

I’m glad that sometimes people get scared and don’t know how to respond to me. I’m glad I can still be a mystery to some people.

What I suppose I could really be saying, although not necessarily, is that it’s good to have a few really fucking good days since You. I really wish You would come back. I don’t know where you are. I doubt you do either, but it’s good to have things that make me truly happy and not have them to have anything to do with You.

Although in the end I’m still glad I miss you. You’re worth missing. I wonder if You miss Yourself sometimes. I haven’t heard anything good about what has happened to You and it stinks that I can’t be there for You. I’ve accepted that You’re gone though, as hard as it is to accept. I can’t believe You won’t be back though. It’s not You’re style. I’m so glad it’s not.

OK. If you and You haven’t got the point by now, you never will. I’m happy right now. I’m satisfied. I look forward to more of these. Thanks to everyone who made me feel this way. Thanks to You. I can’t wait until You come back and I can share this with You too. We’re both worth it.

In the meantime…. The rest of you are more worth it than any one person pretending to be a Human. Oh, how the mighty have fallen.