My Bipolar Journal - Episode 15

So, really good manic episodes are really, really good for most reasons you would imagine manic episodes are really, really good. It seems though that the more manic you are, the more likely you are to snap and I'm not looking forward to that. I don't snap like I'm going to go around shooting people or something, but I usually wind up all crying and weepy. Not a good thing to anticipate when you are looking forward to a weekend with people who probably already suspect your true insanity is still lying just below the surface (and for those of you who read this, you're right!). Especially with the onset coming for the time of the month that I'm reminded that, yes, indeed, I am still capable of reproducing. It's like I have this wonderful cornacopia of events coming on that are leading up to disaster, so I've decided to really open my eyes and pay attention. I WILL NOT BE DEFEATED! I WILL NOT GO DOWN WITHOUT A FIGHT! MWUHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!