Monday, October 30, 2006

My Bipolar Journal - Episode 22

So, I've noticed that I've been real quick to snap a few times lately, which has got me thinking. I don't want to turn into annoying "look at me" girl again, so what am I doing wrong?

I think I have figured out most of it at least. I think. I think it's because I've been so happy lately. My life is almost just the way I've always wanted it, I have the best Humans in my life ever and everything is just almost too perfect. I think I'm not being very quick to recognize the things that make me angry and not avoiding them the way I should be. I guess another theory would be that I might be sabotaging myself, but I think it's more the first thing. Either way, I need to refocus my energy into recognizing what makes me angry so I know how to avoid it from going there in first place. Hell, I need to avoid wanting to go there in the first place.

So, I just inadvertently found out that this is my last day on my assignment here at Federated Department Stores, Inc. Hopefully I'll have something lined up for me for next week and soon. They should really just eliminate this position. There is nothing to do. I know they won't though. If there's one position that will always exist it is that of secretary or assistant. People love having them. They love to know that there is some peon out there doing all their petulant, trivial things every day. They obsess over being important and that there is a food chain in the corporate world. It makes me giggle.

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