My Bipolar Journal - Episode 127

My Bipolar Journal – Episode 127

October 8, 2007

So girls... which apparently I've somehow accumulated as "friends" in the past few months. I'm very curious about this jealousy thing. I've never really done this whole jealousy thing before and it's making me mad. I want to be able to just say, "Stop it." I discussed this in what might be thankfully considered lengthy conversations with one of my boys the other night and, of course, the solution and/or suggestion was, "Get over it, grow up." Well, duh. A) I know that. B) If I could do that, wouldn't you think I would? C) Why are you getting so upset about your love life and jealous of feelings you're having and then feel like you have the right to judge me.

Which could bring up a whole other onslaught of interesting points.

Try to focus on this subject please.

All I know is that this weird jealousy thing allowed me to completely snap. It was like I felt it completely snap off the logical part of my brain and I'm still grasping to figure out where it fell off to. So, the most annoying part is just sorting it out. Trying to get logic to take over again and reign supreme over retardation and jealousy.

So, ladies.. gimme the scoop.... those of you that are content to actually try to settle down for one man so that you can have these irrational thoughts on a daily basis and somehow justify it as normal... please explain yourselves and maybe I'll find a logical answer somewhere in the midst of it all.