My Bipolar Journal - Episode 65

My Bipolar Journal – Episode 65

May 23, 2007

Make It Out

By fORMER

There's a ghost in our room
An' I'm dyin' just to touch you
But I can't get close enough to know
If the voice in my head that's sayin' not to trust you
Is the one that I should face or follow
'Cause you've been pushing me away and I'm torn
So if it's over now..

Maybe I was wrong
Maybe you were right
We'll never make it out of here
Maybe I'm a dreamer
Holdin' on too tight
We'll never make it out of here

There's a crowd hangin' 'round
Waiting for an answer
And I think I recognize some friends
But they don't make a sound
An' the silence feeds the cancer
And we're far too unconcerned to pretend
That we can fool ourselves
And I know that it's over now

(chorus)

So here I sit at my desk doing the nervous twitch, knowing that in a mere two days I will never ever have to do this again. I'm so excited that I just keep smiling and laughing and resisting the urge to jump on my desk and dance to the music that is blasting through my headphones. I can't resist it. I have never in my life been so excited about going to work. I'm entirely too excited, too ready to go, too ready to make the best out of this.

It's not just that either. Everyone is getting there. Everyone in my life seems to be getting closer to their goal or already have reached it. People I adore and love and care about. Nothing could make this better than watching it happen to everyone around me. It's been hard work for all of us, but the work is finally paying off and I'm not just selfishly proud of myself, I'm proud of the rest of you.

So, Denny Smith, I know you wrote this about a girl, but this chorus makes me very happy right now as it pertains to my life at this moment. You really were wrong. ;) Love you guys! And everyone else, check out fORMER. They'll be back in Cincy on July 28 at Dirty Jack's for another rock event of the century.