My Bipolar Journal - Episode 111

My Bipolar Journal – Episode 111

September 12, 2007

I promise I'm amazing

When I'm not feeling hurt all the time

I don't like it when I act this way

But I can't seem to find a way to unwind

I find any excuse I can

To call and write all the time

I keep worrying and expecting

I fight and I protect what's not mine

But how do you stop a feeling

But just saying it away

And how do you fight nothing

When it's everything you've made

I know tomorrow I'll shut up and die

I'll never regret the how or the why

You can't make me stop it

Surprise, neither can I

You can't make me

You can't make me

I wish you'd answer me

Just one solid answer

Instead of trying to make feel

That I caused my own cancer

I'll hold my head up

Just as soon as I am ready

And when I find the answer

I'll keep that path steady

I might be a little needy

Some call it an issue

But all I know is that

I'm uncomfortable when I'm not with you

I know tomorrow I'll shut up and die

I'll never regret the how or the why

You can't make me stop it

Surprise, neither can I

You can't make me

You can't make me