My Bipolar Journal – Episode 120
September 25, 2007
So, match.com says that "the perfect guy could be closer than I think". First of all, what are the odds of that being true. The chance of that one guy being within my vicinity is completely and in all other ways, inevitably impossible. Even if he were, who would want that guy? A perfect guy? You'd never be able to live up to his expectations. I want a beautifully flawed, slightly annoying guy.... or as Caleb has put it a slightly flawed, beautifully annoying guy... or annoyingly beautiful.
Knight in shining armor bullshit isn't always an actualy knight in shing armor. Sometimes it's someone with enough balls to tell you that you're being a bitch. Sometimes it's someone who wants to be kinky in bed. Sometimes it's someone who overexaggerates and tells you stories. Sometimes it's someone who is out of control. I'm so tired of this conditioning that things should be a certain way. I'm so tired of people putting things into categories.
I watched Oprah today and it was about bipolar. I thought it was pretty dead on hearing people describe what it was like to have it, but I'm so not into this whole thing of people being less than who they are exactly by medicating themselves. Now, if you're at a dangerous level that's one thing, but so many people just allow that dangerous level to happen and don't work on finding their symptoms and medicate it away. I still have anxiety attacks, but so do other people that don't have bipolar disorder. It doesn't make me weirder than anyone else. If you can't seem to control yourself ever or want the easy way out, then sure... go get your medication. It'll make you feel "just like everyone else". Sure. Yeah. Right.
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