My Bipolar Journal – Episode 114
September 16, 2007
Ack! I'm so confused. I kind of want to stab myself for so many reasons. I came to Knoxville and I shouldn't have. Not just because of the obvious reasons that everyone will think, but because now I feel guilty about everything. I have a friend back home that needs me. I came here selfishly and was completely selfish the whole time and now feel more selfish because I've left a friend that needs me behing. Selfish, selfish, selfish.
I've been so confused lately. I have to use tomorrow to remedy all this selfishness.
I've never needed someone before. I know it's a mistake, but you can't just stop needing someone. It's a ridiculous philosophy. I should go home now, but I'm already here and I'm tired and would get home just in time to not be able to be there for my friend anyway.
Everyone makes mistakes. I know that. It doesn't make it any easier.
I hope all parties involved will be able to forgive me.
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